“ideas come from your ‘inner garden’ or inner world...and the more diversity and depth you have in there, the more interesting your work will be. making my own art is like trying to cook up a meal with all the ingredients from the garden. often times the process is difficult and you want to pull your hair out. is this garden of the inner self actually wild? i don't know. but i like the idea of life spontaneously growing all over the place. i draw inspiration from that.”
Read More"...what gets to me most about a musical is its celebratory force. celebration is different from victory. victory is a momentary binary outcome and dismisses the complexity of relations between forces. the celebration, on the other hand, lasts for a duration and intends not for resolution, but for expression. celebration is like the process of mourning, but joyfully..."
in this post i riff on musicals, and why i’m such a sucker for them. also, i touch upon what it’s like to go ‘off-script’ and to forge your own path within the somewhat cheesy, but sincere, context of a mixed relationship, which expresses, in large part, what mxdflz is about.
Read More"i refused to go down the same tragic path. i was proud of who i was and didn’t need a larger group to validate me. i chose to be a “lone-wolf” over trying to pass for anything other than what i knew i was– mixed. i refused to sacrifice my family’s historical narrative, and my own personal experiences, to serve the greater good of a ‘group’ identity that would never fully accept me as i am..."
Read More"...to think of 'mixed' as just another label that can be slapped onto a character description is to misunderstand it entirely, not to mention perpetuating a monoracial worldview. representation is disembodying, it's abstraction, it plays into identity politics. rather, what we're about is expression. and an expression is always embodied..."
Read More"...this scene here is interesting. it highlights the subtle difference between being 'mixed' and being 'half'. the difference is not merely one of semantics..."
Read Morea small challenge. can you spot what's missing from this screenshot? just another reason we're such huge fans of the fast and furious series...
Read More"decomposition is simultaneously recomposition. one break necessitates a re-connection elsewhere, and life will go on... until a body is no longer able to make connections that augments its capacity to endure. until it is no longer able to flow..."
Read More"the crashing wave is not proof that the dead are among us; rather the wave is evidence that death is merely conceptual, not real. life is the perpetual recomposition of energy, the transfer of energy from one material body to another. from human body...to elemental wave"
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